Chapter 1
Where I was in my life
Set the scene. What was your life like then?
Wanted or not, welcoming a baby into a couple’s life is something major. I couldn’t understand how people could separate right after welcoming their baby. I mean, this little human is a combination of their true love, a mix of their DNA. Before becoming a mother, I was a shopaholic. I could starve myself to buy a pair of shoes or the latest top from a French designer. I could pay for pre-season pieces shipped from overseas, import taxes included. I wasn’t that rich at the time, but I earned well for the start of my career. The only expenses that mattered were the household ones, and I could afford restaurants, clothes, travel: the nomad life of a couple without a baby. My partner was the same. He could spend a ton on his boxing sessions and the best-performing gloves. He liked going to concerts, going to the bar with his friends, and visiting friends living all over the world. Money wasn’t an issue, and even when we were tight, it only affected the two of us. But the moment the blood test confirmed I was pregnant, my view of life changed. We wanted this baby. We thought we were ready, emotionally and financially. We weren’t. Not in terms of maturity either. Maybe because it was growing inside my body, I was more aware than he was of what we were facing. I started saying no to shopping sprees with my friends, pretending I was exhausted. It was true, but mostly it kept me away from the temptation of useless clothes and expensive restaurants. I knew this baby would take a big part of our budget.
